Then I Begin the New Stories and Start the Project

the world may have turned against you

the world may have said something bad about you

maybe you've done something bad

maybe you've been bad

you just keep goin, alright?

because not everything you do in this world is right to others

just

do

whatever

you

think

is

best

for

you

because it might turns out the best to others

because everything happens for a reason

and you are here for a reason

and you're reading this for a reason

so

make a move

go on and make a difference

you'll never know until you lost you're chances

and as for me,

i never regret all the things that i've done

i only regret things that i didn't do

because i try to do it all.









have you done something to your life today?

Too Late Too Notice

When get depressed I'd like an idiot
just try the second change?

6 feet times 8
so i count the size of this room.

124 seconds.
still no reply.

this square room is starting to choke on me
as it witnessed me being a worthless shit

stop laughing at me!

the walls keep pointing its finger at me

"loser"

"loser"

why? what did i lose?

i keep typing with eyes to the computer screen

still no reply

the walls wont stop laughing

"loser"

"loser"

yes, im a sucker for love

i was expecting a small talk or whatsoever

maybe a bit of "how are you" here and a bit of "what are you up to?" there

no.

37 times i changed the channel

still no reply



should i say it?

umm.. i'll say it right here..



"i miss you".





will you regret it somehow if i love you no more?

You Don't Know How's Be Lefted On The Dark

date: 12/03/2011
time: 19:21
type: text message

message:
"thanks to you too, smua ga sia2 ko, u made me know and learn about love.
this is a good thing, lets be friend, not more than that, aku ninggalin km baik2 ya ko, jgn sampe ntar
ujung2nya kita berantem2 atau ngejelek2in satu sm lain, i know ur a good guy, see you"

current mood: crushed

What Are You Looking At? Past Or Future

I still posting about my past just enjoy it

The Last Hope

days ago, i thought i have found atlantis under the sea.. i thought my adventure to the deepest ocean of this so called love life was getting somewhere.. i saw something majestic, something bright at the end of the darkest tunnel..

"is this it? is this atlantis?"

a great city that i've built once and time lost it, atlantis is a metraphore for something great; my love, my pride, my victory, my glory, my dreams, my joy, my purpose, my last destination

there were so many choices, but i made my decision

"this should be atlantis.. no more looking, choa.. this should be it." i said to myself

i have to make my decision.

her. i chose her over the others, she has won this heart. this mind. she has to be it. has to be.

i ignored her too long until she finally caught my attention.

from the midnite talks to the time that leads to her very first love

me.

i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, but i surely had a good time, and i bet she had one too with me.

"no, this isn't atlantis" i said to myself.

she built a city in my ruin just to watch it burn and see if i could escape.

na-ah.. scratch that, i dont blame her for anything.

maybe this is atlantis, but it wasnt ready to be found yet.

so i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, that says,

"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"

bye atlantis..

it's the end of an era and a start for everything

now i understand something that i didnt understand before..

that all these times,

red is covering atlantis

it was there all along.

take notes that even i wont say again the words "i love you" ever again, i will always still do

have a good one,
buddy

Past Post 6

and sometimes i do cry in my sleep
cus i just cant cry in real life
cus i just thought real life sometimes aint real enough






GAH

scratch that

i dont cry

even in my sleep

this blog is so cheesy

Past Bridge

It's time about past
I'd like to post about my past again,
well just read it if you like it
It's time to get new fantasy again

Real World is coming

Maybe there's just all right now
I'll search the rest in my comp.
so it's time to stop reviewing about the past
and start to keep straight hold on (:

Past Post 5

Stepping off the ledge
She looks at me and says
"Hey Ocha can I spend the night
And wake up in your eyes"

"Of course you can", timidly answered,
But beware I can't promise much
Not at this time in my life

Watching trees change
Just like your ways
You're in my arms for the last time
Pressed together
My heart's weathered
Now we will see each other for the last time

I build you up and you break myself down
How can I sit there while some clown
Namely me
Sets you up for a loss

First of all I'm insecure
And number two I can't be there for you
Not at this time in my life

How can I hear your call in this windy night

Past Post 4

so bored, there is nothing interesting going on.




doin all alone by myself, but maybe

someone needs to put some interest in there ;)

yeah now idk what to talk about.

just dropping in.