All Over and Over Again

at the beginning of the day i keep asking retheoritical question,
"will it be the same today like it was yesterday?"
i mean cmon, what kind of asshole asks that kind of question to himself?
am i really that bad?
im just this kid who still doesn't know certain places cool people go to hang out
or prescripted drugs to missuse to distract all their sad-ass problems
(oh i wish i had one)

am i having a depression?

will this make me suicidal?

i guess when you were once an asshole, and then you're up, everyone u used to know tries to pull you down

well sadly,
the worst thing about the end of the day, is that tomorrow it will start all over again

Wheel of Life

Yuhu
hey blogy
I'd like to post about my story-life-time
what I know is, life has a circulate that you would get it all
so when you in a best position then sometimes in the bad positions
well you should put a S on an AIN'T and get it all to change your positions
yeah actually I don't need that, cuz that's just an imagination for me
let what it does will do whatever it does
maybe there's wrong or right
but keep doing in a right sight gonna make you look bright
uhm, what I'm gonna tell is, I'm in the right positions on the end of semester exam
yeah pretty nice and fuckin strategist place
in the right back corner and get a nice back up on the front and my left
so, someday maybe you'll get a nice position just like me, but not now
why? because is my time, not yours for shining
in a last mid semester exam I've got a bad place, always in front of the fuckin teacher
so I could do anything worse
but this time, I'm try to do good things
just TRY okey?


bye folks

kudos to you

Story to November

Remember tonight it was the best night I've ever know

thanks about what you do to me

Now I know, that was my first time

I'm sorry when I messed up or bad at all

those things was happen like what should be

Hope that you won't angry

I don't know what when we first but we started kissing

I'm not pushed back and you comes up

We were making out it was so much fun

all in all it was really exciting

'it was something new and it was fun

Don't mind if we never gonna do it again

cuz I'll never forget those things



kudos to y'all

Something what you think, Isn't something that you've seen

Back again blog
yea just wanna told you
like the title,everybody always do a snap judgement for all the people that they know
but what they're see just a piece of somebody life
you can't  judge the people by what they do
"Don't judge the book from the cover"
that's what somebody told me for a long time
"What you drive is what you are, what you eat is what you are, and bla bla blast"
anybody doin something for a reason
you thought I'm a good person, but surely not
I am what I am this whole time you were wrong
You thought that I was this whole thing that I'm not
How jealousy has gotten into you
you thought I had a nice life when I home?
you totally wrong

yeah just share a little secret, now I'm done it all alone

well

bye folks

Something Weird That Couldn't Be Seen

Wah lama ngga nulis nih
dalam beberapa hari ini bakal sibuk, dan sebentar lagi saatnya pergi lagi
ada sebuah pernyataan yang menarik yang akan saya bahas nanti malam buat selengkapnya
mungkin saya sebutkan saja dulu pernyataan tersebut
"Kadang Kenyataan tak Selalu Seperti Kelihatannya"
nah apa yang bakal saya ceritakan?
just wait and see

Then I Begin the New Stories and Start the Project

the world may have turned against you

the world may have said something bad about you

maybe you've done something bad

maybe you've been bad

you just keep goin, alright?

because not everything you do in this world is right to others

just

do

whatever

you

think

is

best

for

you

because it might turns out the best to others

because everything happens for a reason

and you are here for a reason

and you're reading this for a reason

so

make a move

go on and make a difference

you'll never know until you lost you're chances

and as for me,

i never regret all the things that i've done

i only regret things that i didn't do

because i try to do it all.









have you done something to your life today?

Too Late Too Notice

When get depressed I'd like an idiot
just try the second change?

6 feet times 8
so i count the size of this room.

124 seconds.
still no reply.

this square room is starting to choke on me
as it witnessed me being a worthless shit

stop laughing at me!

the walls keep pointing its finger at me

"loser"

"loser"

why? what did i lose?

i keep typing with eyes to the computer screen

still no reply

the walls wont stop laughing

"loser"

"loser"

yes, im a sucker for love

i was expecting a small talk or whatsoever

maybe a bit of "how are you" here and a bit of "what are you up to?" there

no.

37 times i changed the channel

still no reply



should i say it?

umm.. i'll say it right here..



"i miss you".





will you regret it somehow if i love you no more?

You Don't Know How's Be Lefted On The Dark

date: 12/03/2011
time: 19:21
type: text message

message:
"thanks to you too, smua ga sia2 ko, u made me know and learn about love.
this is a good thing, lets be friend, not more than that, aku ninggalin km baik2 ya ko, jgn sampe ntar
ujung2nya kita berantem2 atau ngejelek2in satu sm lain, i know ur a good guy, see you"

current mood: crushed

What Are You Looking At? Past Or Future

I still posting about my past just enjoy it

The Last Hope

days ago, i thought i have found atlantis under the sea.. i thought my adventure to the deepest ocean of this so called love life was getting somewhere.. i saw something majestic, something bright at the end of the darkest tunnel..

"is this it? is this atlantis?"

a great city that i've built once and time lost it, atlantis is a metraphore for something great; my love, my pride, my victory, my glory, my dreams, my joy, my purpose, my last destination

there were so many choices, but i made my decision

"this should be atlantis.. no more looking, choa.. this should be it." i said to myself

i have to make my decision.

her. i chose her over the others, she has won this heart. this mind. she has to be it. has to be.

i ignored her too long until she finally caught my attention.

from the midnite talks to the time that leads to her very first love

me.

i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, but i surely had a good time, and i bet she had one too with me.

"no, this isn't atlantis" i said to myself.

she built a city in my ruin just to watch it burn and see if i could escape.

na-ah.. scratch that, i dont blame her for anything.

maybe this is atlantis, but it wasnt ready to be found yet.

so i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, that says,

"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"

bye atlantis..

it's the end of an era and a start for everything

now i understand something that i didnt understand before..

that all these times,

red is covering atlantis

it was there all along.

take notes that even i wont say again the words "i love you" ever again, i will always still do

have a good one,
buddy