Senin, 24 Juni 2013
Jumat, 07 Juni 2013
I am what I am, this whole time you were wrong
Sometimes when I hang around with anybody, doesn't matter who the fuck is that
I feel like I'm the bad influence for them, it's like a poison
dunno why, but sometimes when I gather up with the peoples,
seems like they trying to copying or imitate, mimic or what it goes yang pasti artinya niruin
what I'm doin to them, and what I'm doin is a bad thing
yeah I do a lot's of bad thing, but behind those shit, you'll find that I'm doin right thing with my own way
like part of me has infected the person to continue my existence in the society
I know maybe they not realize it, cuz there's my attitude you're using it, so I'm the one who realize it first
but in fact, I don't really like society, I mean in the real one
I like meeting up with a friends, new friends, or anybody, but when I getting closer with it
it just getting worse, when getting closer to the friends I know it will cause a trouble, internal trouble, or another fight scene and drama love scene
and when I getting closer to the stranger, the old friends is gonna call me cocky, or somethin like that and they will avoid me when I come around
I don't like to change my friend, I like them as usual
and it getting worse again when your bad influence infecting the people you love
I made a promise, to stay away from all of my friend, people I love, so I can't change the attitude for real
and keep'em away from the problem, and they'll be safe by itself, not by me, cuz you can't count on me
Do not make promises that you can't keep it, even though it was the best
but it's hard to see the person you love are forced to be in trouble with you
so just keep away is the best path right now, very far away
bye
Choa Margera
I feel like I'm the bad influence for them, it's like a poison
dunno why, but sometimes when I gather up with the peoples,
seems like they trying to copying or imitate, mimic or what it goes yang pasti artinya niruin
what I'm doin to them, and what I'm doin is a bad thing
yeah I do a lot's of bad thing, but behind those shit, you'll find that I'm doin right thing with my own way
like part of me has infected the person to continue my existence in the society
I know maybe they not realize it, cuz there's my attitude you're using it, so I'm the one who realize it first
but in fact, I don't really like society, I mean in the real one
I like meeting up with a friends, new friends, or anybody, but when I getting closer with it
it just getting worse, when getting closer to the friends I know it will cause a trouble, internal trouble, or another fight scene and drama love scene
and when I getting closer to the stranger, the old friends is gonna call me cocky, or somethin like that and they will avoid me when I come around
I don't like to change my friend, I like them as usual
and it getting worse again when your bad influence infecting the people you love
I made a promise, to stay away from all of my friend, people I love, so I can't change the attitude for real
and keep'em away from the problem, and they'll be safe by itself, not by me, cuz you can't count on me
Do not make promises that you can't keep it, even though it was the best
but it's hard to see the person you love are forced to be in trouble with you
so just keep away is the best path right now, very far away
bye
Choa Margera
Kamis, 06 Juni 2013
Kamis, 23 Mei 2013
See What I See, Feel What I Feel..
Kemaren sempet nulis dalem bahasa inggris dan ada beberapa orang yang bilang
"gue gak bisa bahasa inggris, pake B. Indo aja donk lo nulisnya"
oke, ini cerita gue tulis pake bahasa Indonesia, biar pada ngeh semua
Cerita ini serem jadi barangkali ada yg penakut ada baiknya pipis dulu
daripada ngompol ntar malah repot kan?
sekalian deh, ceritanya bahas tentang bahasa inggris, gimana gue yang orang kampung bego, yang nilainya jelek mulu bisa bicara bahasa inggris, gue jelasin pake cerita nih..
Nah, Jadi gini ceritanya....
sory baru dari kamar mandi tadi, habis kencing...
Ini kejadiannya sama diri gue sendiri, kalo dari guenya sih ga serem ya karena udah biasa, tapi gatau lagi kalo menurut org lain.
Pernah gak ngerasa kalo lo gak pernah sendirian? Nah.. Ini yang gua udah terbiasa dari kecil
Jadi ini diceritain sama tante gue yang punya "mata ketiga", tante gue ini waktu suka merhatiin gue dari kecil.. Ada sesuatu yg dia tau
Waktu gue diceritain ttg ini, gue jadi ngeh "missing puzzle" yg selama ini gue gak ngerti, ini menjelaskan banyak hal yg gue temuin
Kenapa gue cuma inget TK, dan gak inget apa2 lagi sampe akhirnya gue kelas 4 SD
Dan ada satu lagi, ya nanti juga tau deh kalo gue lanjut cerita, makanya baca ampe abis
Jadi, waktu gue tk dan sering ditinggal kedua orang tua kerja, gue sendirian dirumah..
Tapi.. Apa bener gue cuma sendiri?
Gak tau karena imajinasi gue, atau tiba2 ada yang dateng ke gue,
gue "bertemen" sama mahluk sepantaran gue (waktu itu)
Kata tante gue sosoknya bule, perempuan, sepantaran gue..
Awalnya gue susah "ngobrol"nya, tapi lama2 terbiasa, gue belajar bahasa dia
gue bangun pagi orangtua dua2nya udah berangkat kerja, ngeduluin gue sekolah, dan mereka pulang di saat gue udah tidur.
Jadi ya gue ngabisin waktunya sama si "teman imajinasi" (biar gak serem kalo gue bilang mahluk halus ya)
Sebenernya sampe sekarang orangtua gue gak pernah tau knp gue tiba2 bs lancar bahasa inggris, karena gue gak pernah les, dan sekolah juga ga pernah gw tengok.
Maksud gue pada saat SD itu, sekolah udah ada pelajaran bahasa inggris. tapi gw males ngikutinnya. Mereka taunya krn gue sering nonton sesame street di tv dari kecil, sama maen game-game yang pake subtitle bhs inggris, jadi otomatis gue fasih banget sama bahasa inggris, apalagi umpatan2nya hehe..
Gue ada pembantu, tapi suka ninggalin gue sendirian dan pacaran sama tetangga perumahan belakang, dia pikir gue anak yg ga rewel jadi bisa ditinggal2
Semakin sering sendiri semakin gue deket sama temen gue itu..
Duh gue lupa namanya lagi
Gue kasih tau nih kuncinya kalo pengen ngeliat makhluk halus,
Mahluk halus itu kalo mau menampakkan diri butuh energi ekstra,
waktu gue kecil gue punya energi itu, gue yg bikin dia ada di sekitar gue,
energi itu bisa dari rasa takut juga loh..
Jadi kalo emang takutan, kemungkinan liat mahluk halus itu malah besar..
pernah suatu saat dia masuk / nyebrang ke gue, jadi bikin gue gak inget apa yang baru gue lakuin
beberapa temen gue, apalagi temen deket, apalagi yang deket banget, pasti ngerti dan pernah ikut ngalami kejadian di mana gue gak jadi diri gue sendiri
Nah waktu gue kelas 4 SD nyokap udah bs lebih sering dirumah, jadi pelan-pelan gue gak ketemu lagi sama temen gue itu
Dan lama kelamaan dia lepas dari gue karena gue udah gak "kasih makan" dia dengan energi gue
Sesekali, kalo dia punya cukup energi, dia masih suka ngasitau keberadaannya disekitar gue, dimanapun gue tinggal..
Pernah waktu gue tinggal brg anak2 regional Jakarta, di kamar yg guetempatin suka kedengeran suara cewe nyanyi2 kl gue ga ada
Waktu itu si bo'ay (panggilan buat temen gw yang nyari kunci tapi bego itu) yg kamarnya disebelah gue yg suka denger suara cewe nyanyi di kamar gue
Sekarang gue di Sidokare sendirian, kadang jam segini atau pagian dikit gue suka denger bunyi orang nyapu di lantai 2 deket gudang dan bunyi kipas di ruangan drum
Tuh kan barusan ada bunyi gedebukan dari atas kamar gue, padahal diatas gak ada apa2.. Kalo tikus... Gede bgt tikusnya tuh :)
Pernah kan ngerasa lagi sendiri, tapi kaya ada mata yang ngeliatin dari kejauhan.. Atau bahkan.... Gak jauh sama sekali?
Cerita kali ini gak the end, karena.. Ya gue masih hidup kan heh..
bener gue masih hidup? tapi bener juga gak gue udah mati?
makin dikit yang lo tau, semakin bagus :)
bye
Choa Margera
"gue gak bisa bahasa inggris, pake B. Indo aja donk lo nulisnya"
oke, ini cerita gue tulis pake bahasa Indonesia, biar pada ngeh semua
Cerita ini serem jadi barangkali ada yg penakut ada baiknya pipis dulu
daripada ngompol ntar malah repot kan?
sekalian deh, ceritanya bahas tentang bahasa inggris, gimana gue yang orang kampung bego, yang nilainya jelek mulu bisa bicara bahasa inggris, gue jelasin pake cerita nih..
Nah, Jadi gini ceritanya....
sory baru dari kamar mandi tadi, habis kencing...
Ini kejadiannya sama diri gue sendiri, kalo dari guenya sih ga serem ya karena udah biasa, tapi gatau lagi kalo menurut org lain.
Pernah gak ngerasa kalo lo gak pernah sendirian? Nah.. Ini yang gua udah terbiasa dari kecil
Jadi ini diceritain sama tante gue yang punya "mata ketiga", tante gue ini waktu suka merhatiin gue dari kecil.. Ada sesuatu yg dia tau
Waktu gue diceritain ttg ini, gue jadi ngeh "missing puzzle" yg selama ini gue gak ngerti, ini menjelaskan banyak hal yg gue temuin
Kenapa gue cuma inget TK, dan gak inget apa2 lagi sampe akhirnya gue kelas 4 SD
Dan ada satu lagi, ya nanti juga tau deh kalo gue lanjut cerita, makanya baca ampe abis
Jadi, waktu gue tk dan sering ditinggal kedua orang tua kerja, gue sendirian dirumah..
Tapi.. Apa bener gue cuma sendiri?
Gak tau karena imajinasi gue, atau tiba2 ada yang dateng ke gue,
gue "bertemen" sama mahluk sepantaran gue (waktu itu)
Kata tante gue sosoknya bule, perempuan, sepantaran gue..
Awalnya gue susah "ngobrol"nya, tapi lama2 terbiasa, gue belajar bahasa dia
gue bangun pagi orangtua dua2nya udah berangkat kerja, ngeduluin gue sekolah, dan mereka pulang di saat gue udah tidur.
Jadi ya gue ngabisin waktunya sama si "teman imajinasi" (biar gak serem kalo gue bilang mahluk halus ya)
Sebenernya sampe sekarang orangtua gue gak pernah tau knp gue tiba2 bs lancar bahasa inggris, karena gue gak pernah les, dan sekolah juga ga pernah gw tengok.
Maksud gue pada saat SD itu, sekolah udah ada pelajaran bahasa inggris. tapi gw males ngikutinnya. Mereka taunya krn gue sering nonton sesame street di tv dari kecil, sama maen game-game yang pake subtitle bhs inggris, jadi otomatis gue fasih banget sama bahasa inggris, apalagi umpatan2nya hehe..
Gue ada pembantu, tapi suka ninggalin gue sendirian dan pacaran sama tetangga perumahan belakang, dia pikir gue anak yg ga rewel jadi bisa ditinggal2
Semakin sering sendiri semakin gue deket sama temen gue itu..
Duh gue lupa namanya lagi
Gue kasih tau nih kuncinya kalo pengen ngeliat makhluk halus,
Mahluk halus itu kalo mau menampakkan diri butuh energi ekstra,
waktu gue kecil gue punya energi itu, gue yg bikin dia ada di sekitar gue,
energi itu bisa dari rasa takut juga loh..
Jadi kalo emang takutan, kemungkinan liat mahluk halus itu malah besar..
pernah suatu saat dia masuk / nyebrang ke gue, jadi bikin gue gak inget apa yang baru gue lakuin
beberapa temen gue, apalagi temen deket, apalagi yang deket banget, pasti ngerti dan pernah ikut ngalami kejadian di mana gue gak jadi diri gue sendiri
Nah waktu gue kelas 4 SD nyokap udah bs lebih sering dirumah, jadi pelan-pelan gue gak ketemu lagi sama temen gue itu
Dan lama kelamaan dia lepas dari gue karena gue udah gak "kasih makan" dia dengan energi gue
Sesekali, kalo dia punya cukup energi, dia masih suka ngasitau keberadaannya disekitar gue, dimanapun gue tinggal..
Pernah waktu gue tinggal brg anak2 regional Jakarta, di kamar yg guetempatin suka kedengeran suara cewe nyanyi2 kl gue ga ada
Waktu itu si bo'ay (panggilan buat temen gw yang nyari kunci tapi bego itu) yg kamarnya disebelah gue yg suka denger suara cewe nyanyi di kamar gue
Sekarang gue di Sidokare sendirian, kadang jam segini atau pagian dikit gue suka denger bunyi orang nyapu di lantai 2 deket gudang dan bunyi kipas di ruangan drum
Tuh kan barusan ada bunyi gedebukan dari atas kamar gue, padahal diatas gak ada apa2.. Kalo tikus... Gede bgt tikusnya tuh :)
Pernah kan ngerasa lagi sendiri, tapi kaya ada mata yang ngeliatin dari kejauhan.. Atau bahkan.... Gak jauh sama sekali?
Cerita kali ini gak the end, karena.. Ya gue masih hidup kan heh..
bener gue masih hidup? tapi bener juga gak gue udah mati?
makin dikit yang lo tau, semakin bagus :)
bye
Choa Margera
Minggu, 19 Mei 2013
Another Chaos
Suddenly my ex come to me and explain about what I don't know and what doesn't clear enough
she told me everything, even when I say stop, she keep telling me.
I know that I hurt you for the retaliation song, but it doesn't means I hate you
I never hate someone, but I just don't really care about them
even I don't care about myself, I don't care about anything at all
she told me that she still into me, but all I'm gonna say is no
she asked why? I read your lyrics for me that you still want do it again with me
no, you should realize and read my older post, I wrote that lyrics not for you, it's for my another ex
yeah I'm not gonna make it for you, I still know what you gonna do to me "tomorrow"
and I'm afraid it will happen again tomorrow
ego? no, that just my attitude, wanna change me? well it's alright, but if you really wanna do it,
I'm gonna make some test for you, if you really patient enough, you passed, then I change my attitude
but there's no one could patient enough, no body could change me, so the conclution is
I'm not gonna change myself, If you want to change me, I should test it, but not also just test it, I want make it proud of change me, because the process of the change is harder than my test, so I need someone that had patience enough on me
well should I change by myself?
no, I won't
if nothing motivates or triggering for change, then the change will be hard to do
so just enjoy my last behavior, it's not good at all, it makes everybody hates me
keep your hate on me, cuz I can hold all of them by myself
do I look strong cuz for that?
no, even atlas ever tired of supporting and lifting the earth
yeah I ever feeling tired of this, but It goes again, I should ready again
she told me everything, even when I say stop, she keep telling me.
I know that I hurt you for the retaliation song, but it doesn't means I hate you
I never hate someone, but I just don't really care about them
even I don't care about myself, I don't care about anything at all
she told me that she still into me, but all I'm gonna say is no
she asked why? I read your lyrics for me that you still want do it again with me
no, you should realize and read my older post, I wrote that lyrics not for you, it's for my another ex
yeah I'm not gonna make it for you, I still know what you gonna do to me "tomorrow"
and I'm afraid it will happen again tomorrow
ego? no, that just my attitude, wanna change me? well it's alright, but if you really wanna do it,
I'm gonna make some test for you, if you really patient enough, you passed, then I change my attitude
but there's no one could patient enough, no body could change me, so the conclution is
I'm not gonna change myself, If you want to change me, I should test it, but not also just test it, I want make it proud of change me, because the process of the change is harder than my test, so I need someone that had patience enough on me
well should I change by myself?
no, I won't
if nothing motivates or triggering for change, then the change will be hard to do
so just enjoy my last behavior, it's not good at all, it makes everybody hates me
keep your hate on me, cuz I can hold all of them by myself
do I look strong cuz for that?
no, even atlas ever tired of supporting and lifting the earth
yeah I ever feeling tired of this, but It goes again, I should ready again
Senin, 13 Mei 2013
Still into you (question mark)
Hey folks, wazzup?
not good right?
yeah, it's been 3 weeks I left this blog
I'm tired of filling this blog with "missing" thing
1 month ago, my friend was told me that he's gonna across this country
and stay in the other country
I've got shocked, anybody in jekarda is gone, they went to across the country and many of them
would stay and won't comeback
so, just me, I'm the one who stuck in this country, plan about to leave this country?
yes of course, but I promise I will come back, cuz this country save a lot of precious memory
My ex told me, that she wanted to go to Australia and settled for a few years there, and she cut me a deal to make her a song, than she trade me with some paint job or anything else, then I take the deal, I made her a song
I'm just tired of this love story, saking capenya sampe males translate ke bhs inggris nih sebenernya
so I made this song just for expressed my feeling right now about my another ex, but I will miss her too if she actually went to australia, but those feeling doesn't mean I want her back
I'm tired of those love story, I'm just gonna laid my heart and wait until it fix by itself, I don't want to seek or find anybody, I'm just let anybody find it, and just left it if it was wrong. I know you hate me, everybody hate me, nobody loves me like you before, but yeah, that's just past story again
now all of you is in the friendzone
jadi quotenya gw pake b indo aja dah
not good right?
yeah, it's been 3 weeks I left this blog
I'm tired of filling this blog with "missing" thing
1 month ago, my friend was told me that he's gonna across this country
and stay in the other country
I've got shocked, anybody in jekarda is gone, they went to across the country and many of them
would stay and won't comeback
so, just me, I'm the one who stuck in this country, plan about to leave this country?
yes of course, but I promise I will come back, cuz this country save a lot of precious memory
My ex told me, that she wanted to go to Australia and settled for a few years there, and she cut me a deal to make her a song, than she trade me with some paint job or anything else, then I take the deal, I made her a song
I'm just tired of this love story, saking capenya sampe males translate ke bhs inggris nih sebenernya
so I made this song just for expressed my feeling right now about my another ex, but I will miss her too if she actually went to australia, but those feeling doesn't mean I want her back
I'm tired of those love story, I'm just gonna laid my heart and wait until it fix by itself, I don't want to seek or find anybody, I'm just let anybody find it, and just left it if it was wrong. I know you hate me, everybody hate me, nobody loves me like you before, but yeah, that's just past story again
now all of you is in the friendzone
jadi quotenya gw pake b indo aja dah
Benci sama cinta itu saling melengkapi, gak bisa bilang cinta tanpa ci dari benci dan juga gak bisa bilang benci tanpa ci dari cinta , gabisa ben doank, dan gak bisa nta doank kan? hehe
" Karena ada tai dalam mencintai, dan ada tai dalam dicintai, jadi mari bercinta saja "
Bye
Choa Margera
Rabu, 08 Mei 2013
Tour Life
Hey bloggy,
this tour life makes my back always cracking when I'm wake up
sorry for left you cold in here
doin some photograph, playing as session player, join in some bands
yeah we having a lot's of fun,
running through the hotel corridor just using a T-shirt
until wreck down the show
yang pasti seru banget sampe gw males translate.in ke bhs inggris
gw mau cerita nih pengalaman pas tour
Dalam sebuah backstage
karena ini tempat baru, gw jadi gugup sebelum naik, alhasil kebelet pipis lah yang selalu terasa
padahal gw bolak-balik terus ke toilet pipis cuma sekali, kadang-kadang sampe toilet ga kebelet, eh pas balik kebelet, gw jadi mondar-mandir mulu ke toilet
temen gw ini berdiri di depan gudang alat-alat cadangan sambil liat ke bawah, semacam mencari sesuatu gitu
terjadilah percakapan...
Choa : Ko, ngapain di luar? di dalem gih sama anak-anak
Rico : entar dulu dah, gw nyari kunci nih
Choa : kunci apa.an?
Rico : kunci mobil, tadi gw pas keluarin stand cymbal, gw pergi ke gudang ini, katanya ga di pake standnya, jadi gw simpen di gudang ini dulu niatnya
Choa : lha kenapa ga di balikin ke mobil lagi?
Rico : parkirnya jauh bego, males angkut2nya, bantuin nyari ye
Choa : youda gw bantuin nyari
15 menit kemudian
Choa : lu yakin jatuh ? kaga ketinggalan di dalem bagasi?
Rico : iye gw yakin, gw inget pas gw masukin stand cymbal gw bawa masuk kuncinya trus jatuh
Choa : lha jatuhnya di mana?
Rico : di dalem sono (nunjuk gudang cadangan)
Choa : trus kenapa lo nyuruh gw cari disini? lo bego ato ga punya otak sih? heran gw
Rico : elu yang bego, di dalem gelap, kaga ada lampu, ya gw alternatif donk carinya di sini aje
Choa : makin bego gw gaul ama lo
singkat cerita kami melanjutkan mencari kunci bersama setelah selesai tampil
Pelajaran yang bisa kita ambil adalah,
"selesaikanlah masalah pada tempatnya, segelap apapun tempatnya"
Kbye
Choa Margera
this tour life makes my back always cracking when I'm wake up
sorry for left you cold in here
doin some photograph, playing as session player, join in some bands
yeah we having a lot's of fun,
running through the hotel corridor just using a T-shirt
until wreck down the show
yang pasti seru banget sampe gw males translate.in ke bhs inggris
gw mau cerita nih pengalaman pas tour
Dalam sebuah backstage
karena ini tempat baru, gw jadi gugup sebelum naik, alhasil kebelet pipis lah yang selalu terasa
padahal gw bolak-balik terus ke toilet pipis cuma sekali, kadang-kadang sampe toilet ga kebelet, eh pas balik kebelet, gw jadi mondar-mandir mulu ke toilet
temen gw ini berdiri di depan gudang alat-alat cadangan sambil liat ke bawah, semacam mencari sesuatu gitu
terjadilah percakapan...
Choa : Ko, ngapain di luar? di dalem gih sama anak-anak
Rico : entar dulu dah, gw nyari kunci nih
Choa : kunci apa.an?
Rico : kunci mobil, tadi gw pas keluarin stand cymbal, gw pergi ke gudang ini, katanya ga di pake standnya, jadi gw simpen di gudang ini dulu niatnya
Choa : lha kenapa ga di balikin ke mobil lagi?
Rico : parkirnya jauh bego, males angkut2nya, bantuin nyari ye
Choa : youda gw bantuin nyari
15 menit kemudian
Choa : lu yakin jatuh ? kaga ketinggalan di dalem bagasi?
Rico : iye gw yakin, gw inget pas gw masukin stand cymbal gw bawa masuk kuncinya trus jatuh
Choa : lha jatuhnya di mana?
Rico : di dalem sono (nunjuk gudang cadangan)
Choa : trus kenapa lo nyuruh gw cari disini? lo bego ato ga punya otak sih? heran gw
Rico : elu yang bego, di dalem gelap, kaga ada lampu, ya gw alternatif donk carinya di sini aje
Choa : makin bego gw gaul ama lo
singkat cerita kami melanjutkan mencari kunci bersama setelah selesai tampil
Pelajaran yang bisa kita ambil adalah,
"selesaikanlah masalah pada tempatnya, segelap apapun tempatnya"
Kbye
Choa Margera
Selasa, 07 Mei 2013
I-Empire
I may not be as honest as a prophet
but you know my feeling for you is always real
I may not be as bright as the sun
but i can get you through dark days
I was once broken like Hirosima
until you helped me built back my pillars like Rome
I am your empire
and you should be my throne
but you know my feeling for you is always real
I may not be as bright as the sun
but i can get you through dark days
I was once broken like Hirosima
until you helped me built back my pillars like Rome
I am your empire
and you should be my throne
Senin, 06 Mei 2013
Re-rediscovering Atlantis
Im in the beginning of my life, the adventure, the start of something new.
I've started something a year ago and it all comes to this, I'm in the beginning of my peak of career, god knows how hard I've tried, the sweat, the tears, the laugh, the joy, the pain, the ego, and then something happened, something terribly shocking happened
I know I shouldn't have write about this for public so they wont ever notice the imperfections of something that looks this beautiful
I'll share it anyway
weeks ago we were having this so called 'band meeting' to talk about stuff.. as some of you may know, my band consist several people who's also involved in other bands.. on that very day we were having a discussion about the possibilities that one day we're about to make a release album party will make it, what will happen to the other bands that the others involves with.. they said "lets take this further" which means "ok, go!" so i took it further and further and further.. we should had a hell of a release party, it was one of the best time of my life, my parents will be there, I showed them that this is what I've been doing, all the efforts. I showed them and all the other people who believed me that I can took it further, it was definitely a hell of an awesome night.
and then, good things started to come. one big ass cigarrette company offered sponsorship for us to do tour.. ok that was nice to hear
wait there's more
Indonesian small tour! wew that's something. that's SOMETHING with the capital everything.
and then I passed the news to all the other members.. I was expecting a hurray and thrilled but one of my friend who plays this instrument in my band replied with a short "when?" and i replied "juni atau juli" he replied "yaah.. itu pas **** rilis (the cencored initials of that dude's other band" oh you should know how shocked and heartbroken I was that very night.. I lost interest in anything.. really, everything.. I mentioned about the time that we all had that band meeting and he replied "gw juga ga pernah mimpi kita bisa sampe kaya sekarang" what was that suppose to mean? what about our efforts? what about my dreams? what about OUR dreams? he said he wanted to focus to his studies cus he'll be doing final task (skripsi) shortly.. I understand.. what can I do? I'm on your back, pal..
and then I just had a conversation with my other band member who's also with another band.. he said this specific words: "suatu saat emg gw hrs milih cho, dan gw blm bs milih untuk sekarang"
speechless
does this means we're breaking up?
like all my other relationships?
I guess this is the perfect time to say this
"it's all downhill from here"
I don't know what to do.
I need someone to lift me up. I lost her. I know I've lost her.
I'm gonna end this with a quote from a song, i forgot the title of it but this came from one of my favorite local band, fight for a day
"comeback when it's over, I'm gonna tell you a story about me without you"
bye
Choa Margera
I've started something a year ago and it all comes to this, I'm in the beginning of my peak of career, god knows how hard I've tried, the sweat, the tears, the laugh, the joy, the pain, the ego, and then something happened, something terribly shocking happened
I know I shouldn't have write about this for public so they wont ever notice the imperfections of something that looks this beautiful
I'll share it anyway
weeks ago we were having this so called 'band meeting' to talk about stuff.. as some of you may know, my band consist several people who's also involved in other bands.. on that very day we were having a discussion about the possibilities that one day we're about to make a release album party will make it, what will happen to the other bands that the others involves with.. they said "lets take this further" which means "ok, go!" so i took it further and further and further.. we should had a hell of a release party, it was one of the best time of my life, my parents will be there, I showed them that this is what I've been doing, all the efforts. I showed them and all the other people who believed me that I can took it further, it was definitely a hell of an awesome night.
and then, good things started to come. one big ass cigarrette company offered sponsorship for us to do tour.. ok that was nice to hear
wait there's more
Indonesian small tour! wew that's something. that's SOMETHING with the capital everything.
and then I passed the news to all the other members.. I was expecting a hurray and thrilled but one of my friend who plays this instrument in my band replied with a short "when?" and i replied "juni atau juli" he replied "yaah.. itu pas **** rilis (the cencored initials of that dude's other band" oh you should know how shocked and heartbroken I was that very night.. I lost interest in anything.. really, everything.. I mentioned about the time that we all had that band meeting and he replied "gw juga ga pernah mimpi kita bisa sampe kaya sekarang" what was that suppose to mean? what about our efforts? what about my dreams? what about OUR dreams? he said he wanted to focus to his studies cus he'll be doing final task (skripsi) shortly.. I understand.. what can I do? I'm on your back, pal..
and then I just had a conversation with my other band member who's also with another band.. he said this specific words: "suatu saat emg gw hrs milih cho, dan gw blm bs milih untuk sekarang"
speechless
does this means we're breaking up?
like all my other relationships?
I guess this is the perfect time to say this
"it's all downhill from here"
I don't know what to do.
I need someone to lift me up. I lost her. I know I've lost her.
I'm gonna end this with a quote from a song, i forgot the title of it but this came from one of my favorite local band, fight for a day
"comeback when it's over, I'm gonna tell you a story about me without you"
bye
Choa Margera
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