Another Chaos

Suddenly my ex come to me and explain about what I don't know and what doesn't clear enough
she told me everything, even when I say stop, she keep telling me.
I know that I hurt you for the retaliation song, but it doesn't means I hate you
I never hate someone, but I just don't really care about them
even I don't care about myself, I don't care about anything at all
she told me that she still into me, but all I'm gonna say is no
she asked why? I read your lyrics for me that you still want do it again with me
no, you should realize and read my older post, I wrote that lyrics not for you, it's for my another ex
yeah I'm not gonna make it for you, I still know what you gonna do to me "tomorrow"
and I'm afraid it will happen again tomorrow
ego? no, that just my attitude, wanna change me? well it's alright, but if you really wanna do it,
I'm gonna make some test for you, if you really patient enough, you passed, then I change my attitude
but there's no one could patient enough, no body could change me, so the conclution is
I'm not gonna change myself, If you want to change me, I should test it, but not also just test it, I want make it proud of change me, because the process of the change is harder than my test, so I need someone that had patience enough on me
well should I change by myself?
no, I won't
if nothing motivates or triggering for change, then the change will be hard to do
so just enjoy my last behavior, it's not good at all, it makes everybody hates me
keep your hate on me, cuz I can hold all of them by myself
do I look strong cuz for that?
no, even atlas ever tired of supporting and lifting the earth
yeah I ever feeling tired of this, but It goes again, I should ready again