No More Turnback Point

I'm not in the well condition, I already sick in this first month,
but I think it out so it not became a mistake
I think a saw a light, a way out, I kinda happy on it
even there's a little shinny light, I think, I should chase it
but in time when I see the lights, it's getting dark, but I still after it
I'm never let you down again, I think it all again and decided to build it up,
but why you just dump me and don't bother me?
I'm make you very disappointed?
you look in your ways and think with that,
don't you know I've got another problem? yes you've another too
but I'm in your position in a last days
but I need time to think it out that I should go on, but you closed it
you burn it and it became an ash that buried on the ground
why you can't let me in? I was told you that I try to keep on
why I'm doing this?
there's another reason for me why I keep doing this
I don't want let you go
I know those things that what I've done it's so fuckin suck
but I can fix it, it would be better, just thrust me
you can't thrust your friends but you can't thrust me?
gimme a chance, there's still another way to make this again
are you shy when you should told to your friends that you're not single anymore
and your friend will judge you with their words? why you don't want it? yes that's it, you're ego is higher than your hearts
don't let it filling your heart, I try to lowing down my ego, but why you still keep your ego up?
I won't let you down

Indigo Kid

I know that this time I'm an Indigo
it's like a weird ability to predict what's gonna happen
then I now it's now happen, it's over now
nothings left for me,
yeah still try to cold out and chill,
I try to make you understand what's wrong and what to fix, but what?
you're not gonna fix it right, cuz you're never really with me anyway
now my own through the day
and I'll look for the meaning of life
disappear, move, crawl, sink..
Well there in a beautiful place
because I'm sure she'll be happy
smiling, laughing, and look perfect
 go on, get your friends as a back up
why I won't told you everything, cuz you never thrust me in anything
is it right? absolutely, you understanding me? care about me? not a lot
why?, back to the first conclusion you never really with me anyway
You’ve tried your best, I appreciate that, Let your heart move on
now it's all died in vein, what I dedicated to you, you not appreciate on it, and now it's definitely just a junk
I don't know if we can be friends anymore
I'm afraid I can't be a good friends for you, this traumatic keeps blowing me of the reef
I choose the dark side where I can feel pain and less,
maybe I'm your worst enemy, but love me or hate me, is the same me that you'll find
need a long time to rebuild myself again
just wanted you know the worst thing of this all, you are the best I had so far

I Had to Leave, Just in Time You Had to Go

I try to think straight out now
you're no longer for me now
should this break up? even if I don't want it?
I was know the truth that I'm not belong to you
even your parents is against me, and you wouldn't in my side
should I give up this time, but actually I don't get the point this time
consider it's done, don't bother to explain it, I don't care anymore
you know what's fun is fun, I know what's done is done
so let the story end this way, let us forget it, let us pretend it
i know you prefer to go with your friends better than with me
and seems you kinda happy on it
I won't disturb you anymore
I kinda happy if you happy, even it's not with me
what do I do is not gonna make you stay, so I'm gonna leave this and the rest is up to you
I never threat you to take your choice with me cuz I know that will make you even more sad
I don't know what to do now
I think you'll choose the way of you think, just don't bother what I said to you
that's not important anymore
sorry that I'm wasting your time, but in case, you'll find someone better than me
I try to not regret it, but there's nothing left for me
all of it, family, friends,best friends,any of them including you is gone
even my hope is gone
maybe my life will gone this time, but that isn't matter
I don't hate this life, maybe I'm just not so good on it

gonna seek something that I wouldn't find

bye

Let's Talk About Feelings

Hey, It goes by another reason, it may fill up in my mind
I should be gone far away and never gonna back
those things is getting clear that you choose your friends & left just left me by the time
It just like playing a puzzle in my heart
when I choose the type of the puzzle, then started to build it up, but when I started to know the picture on it, The other piece is falling down when I try to fit another piece, The other piece is falling down over and over again so then I try so hard and make it fit in the place, then the other was falling down again, I started to collect all the puzzle and started to place it in the right place but it goes again, yea the other piece is falling down again should I give up, I don't know why the pieces is gone one by one maybe those puzzle it's to hard for me to build up? Or I'm not in the age to build up those puzzle maybe I started to regret it why those puzzle is letting those pieces goes falling down
I know it's hard, but I'll try to chill out and take a deep breath
I know that you're bored of me, I know you hate me, I know that I always wrong to threat you Maybe I'm searching the point to turnback, but that's to hard to find, you may choose it, with your friends, cuz I like to see you happy with the other better than sad with me just don't care of me,
I know you wouldn't care a lot on me again, but that's you should care of your friends maybe I start to walk alone This time, and keep my foot on the ground and stay awake for a few days

I Always Care If You Don't Care

well now it's totally clear that she was bored of me
she never really want me
maybe at those point, I just disappointing on her
but I do whatever it takes, not overacted it
when I near you it's comfortable but it didn't same in your side
it seems you feel kind of happiness when your not around me
from the way you laugh,talk,everything
just when you upset you came to me,
everything that I do just disturb your happiness with all of your friends
when around me, you just get another trouble that I made,
You really hard to decide it, be with me or with all your friends
Hey,
just leave me and go to your mates
I will never turn against you
but someday wouldn't always the same day like the day before
I will not surrender even this heart is wounded
I still can hold all of those pain with pills and another drinks
but I just want you realize that I wasn't for you
I'm so depressed right now
All I can do just walk away from you

I'll meet you on the other side

need more time to regrets all I've done :')

Wierd Things Thats Getting Right

Now I realize, it's all getting clearer
I know that you even can throw me a dump and just left me and walk away
you never serious on me, I know that
just see you never turn against my fault and never wanna to straight me if I'm wrong
you've been tired of me
maybe the time will proof it all
I started to seek of my fault, but I did it intentionally just to look your react
now I know that I've lost everything, there's nothing left for me
Maybe I just start to runaway from this point
I won't cry, I'm not an emo anymore
I tought this time you would stay
here I stand just to watch you fade, everynight and everyday you took my breath away
Do you know the worst thing of this all?
you're the best I've had so far
cause everysong and everyword I just can't keep my mind of you

Side Story About Life Goes Down

I don't what's wrong at all
I tried so hard to fix it but it never done
what's the problem?
I always try to not said any sarcastically for you
but when I started to think it out all again
then it wasn't the "problem"
that's about teasing
I kinda like doing all things by myself so I keep it all for me
but sometimes I'd like to teasing people to make them mad, not to make them like me
I don't wanna make any friends again
that's it why you always teasing another people that's not related in front of me
maybe you will do that in the back of me, yeah of course you do
but I'm trying to don't notice it, I'd like to pretending that's just imagine even it's true
maybe someday you'll turn into a friend,
guess what? I'm ready
I was used to hold all the pain from you, even it was so hard I still can be harder or hardest to fight that
when there's a way out, I'll find the way and just keep it open until the time change it.
you're just not find what you looking for in me
then I need a time to figure it all a lot

see ya

12-11-2013

Terima kasih tuhan, sudah memburam-buyar-pudarkan hari ini

"Kebahagiaan Itu Tidak Ada Tanggal Kadaluarsa"

Time

When I think straight, I even don't find the point, so it's now make sense at all to think, so I shouldn't what I should think
yeah it's hard
but when It's all gone I won't that back
letting it out your life is so hard to anyone, but it's just a time to forget what you've done
there's nothing can be cure by the time
time will lead you and teach you about the passion of life
but I know what you gonna say, twenty four hours doesn't enough
yeah I think about that too
why just twenty four, how about fifty three? or something else
when the time ticks by, there's a something happend
stop the time? then just go out from your own life
things will be fine beside the right people
whatever the end someday, remember about the happiness
your story of life wouldn't till the dead cames by

happy sunday

altough this monday

gonna go

bye