Just Call Me Dochi

i love it when someone care enough to be my friend.
and i'm sorry, i'm not arrogant, i'm just timid. so excuse me if you remember talking to me and i didn't look you in the eye. i hate it when i see through you and notice the things that i don't really want to know. sometimes it is better to just hide the truth that i don't wanna hear or things that i don't really wanna know about.
i don't usually say "hi" when i meet people i dont know quite well, but i'd be cool enough to spare my time for those who intended to talk or just say a simple "hi". i don't really care who they really are, or how they judge me.. much i know i'd be glad to help when someone needed help. as i remember, i made friends with all kinds of people.
and i care about my friends, but i also care about myself. i don't smoke (i hate cigarettes and it's not cool when someone blow their smoke on my face, so if you wanna smoke, you better not smoke near me), i don't drink, i used to, but i stopped doing that since the start of this month. sex is always good. always. i hate hypocrits, i love cracking conspiracies, i love learning new things and keeping up with new potentials.
i hate ungrateful people, i hate people who doesn't appreciate others, and i like people the way they are. if you are nice enough and you have problems and you feel like sharing, i'd be glad to help.I hang out with zombies without being one of them, it's just me, Love Doctor , hahaha

gonna grab my guitar and be kidnapped by my best friend to hang out


bye

Tentang Waktu, Kita, Mereka, dan Bahagia

Berdasarkan kisah yang diceritakan sahabat gw dan pengalaman gw sendiri
Gw baru mengalami hal hebat yang mematahkan kosep bahagia gw yaitu "Kebahagiaan Tidak Ada Tanggal Kadaluarsa"
Berdasarkan kisah tsb jadi mau ngulang lagi bahas tentang bahagia
sesuatu yang simple tapi kadang dibuat rumit.
karena bahagia itu bukan tujuan..
kalo di jadiin tujuan, perjalanannya gak bisa dinikmati dan agaknya jadi terlalu berharap..
Berjalanlah dengan bahagia, sampai tujuannya tercapai..
Kalo loe gagal, loe tau loe udah berusaha sebisa loe, loe akan tetap menghargai diri loe sendiri, dan loe punya cadangan tenaga yang cukup untuk menyelesaikan perjalanan loe karena kebahagiaan itu energi yang gak bisa abis..
Kalo berhasil? bayangkan gimana senengnya loe nanti...

"gw gak bisa bahagia kalo gak sama dia"

itu pilihan, loe bisa bahagia sendiri, tp loe yang gak memilih itu kan?

kebahagiaan bukan untuk dicari, dalam kekecewaanpun loe bisa bahagia..
Dalam kekurangan..
Ketika loe baru aja kehilangan sesuatu yang loe anggap segalanya loe akan merasa loe gak punya apa-apa lagi..
Ya sudah, kehilangan selalu punya dua sisi, yang kehilangan, dan yang menghilang..
Kalo loe ada di sisi yang menghilang, berbahagialah..
Mmungkin hidup loe akan lebih menarik di depan...
Kalo loe ada di sisi yang kehilangan, berbahagialah untuk mereka..
seburuk apapun orang itu menyakiti hati loe, ada kebaikan mereka dalam hidup loe..
Sedih? iya.. pasti sedih, tp loe merasakan sedih karena loe ngebayangin hal yang seharusnya bisa membuat loe bahagia..
Loe mulai mikirin setiap hal menyenangkan yang loe jalanin akan lebih menyenangkan bila masih ada orang itu untuk berbagi..
Berbahagialah karena loe masih bisa mengingat hal yang menyenangkan saat loe berada di posisi yang tidak menyenangkan!
Tapi selalu ingat untuk menjadi orang yang pandai berterimakasih..
Bahwa yang lo lewatin dengan orang itu tidak hanya yang tidak menyenangkan saja, tapi banyak juga yang menyenangkan..
berbahagialah untuk itu.

Jangan terus-terusan menghukum diri loe karena udah melakukan kesalahan yang membuat keadaan jadi kacau, karena mungkin emang ini saatnya untuk berbenah.

gak ada kok yang gak bisa disembuhin sama yang namanya WAKTU..

emang keadaan selalu lebih mudah disisi mereka yang bisa bergerak

maka itu, bergeraklah!

Hai yang sekarang jadi teman, apapun akhirnya nanti, ingatlah selalu untuk berbahagia, karena bagaimanapun sebenarnya gw sangat mau untuk kembali lagi sama loe, tapi kalo di tinjau sepertinya loe udah ga perlu org kaya gw lagi, sory uda ngacak-acak hidup loe, kalo loe emang mau balik gw masih nungguin juga kog, meskipun ga ada harapan buat itu, mungkin suatu saat saat loe dapet yang lebih baik dari gw, gw cuma bisa bilang selamat ya (:

Ini yang perlu di inget
Cerita hidup lo gak akan berakhir sampe lo mati.. yang kuat ya... meski kadang kenyataan itu pait rasanya



Choa Margera

junk

Hey, welcome back in this galaxy
want to share something?
Now I've got lost in this galaxy, I dunno what to do and even I almost forget what I'm after
it's still the same day
how about another story?
yeah just posting this shit, don't mind

Android Test

Hey, just testing if this work?
Maybe should get used to this

Durhaka Tak Selamanya Salah

Ini adalah sebuah cerita dari teman gw yang pernah bercerita pada gw.
jadi gini, dia tinggal di sebuah keluarga lengkap tapi memiliki orang tua yang otoriter
suatu saat dia ingin membuktikan bakatnya di bidang kesenian
dia bilang ke papanya pada saat itu untuk memberikan dana untuk bandnya register di sebuah acara
mamanya setuju dengan hal tsb, tapi papanya berkata,
"kalo kamu tetep mau ngeband-band.an yang gag jelas itu, silahkan, tapi papa ngga setuju, dan kalo diterusin papa ngga akan biayain kuliah kamu"
dan dia begitu depresi, dia bingung harus bagaimana,
dia takut menjadi anak yang durhaka,
dia sangat putus asa, dan dia sempat memikirkan untuk bunuh diri karena segala potensinya di stop
dia bertanya pada saya harus berbuat apa
pertama gw hanya heran, kenapa banyak orang tua ngelarang anaknya untuk ngelakuin suatu hal yang dia suka? bukankah kalo dia punya passion di situ, dia akan serius menjalani itu, maka dia bisa sukses bukan?
gw juga belom tau kunci sukses itu sendiri, kunci bagaimana sukses sudah banyak orang-orang mencari,
coba cari kunci penyebab tidak sukses, berpengaruh? iya sangat pengaruh,
cara anda tidak sukses adalah mencoba membahagiakan semua orang,
karena faktanya anda ga bakal bisa membahagiakan semua orang,
kita tidak bisa membahagiakan semua orang dengan pilihan kita
itu faktanya, kita tidak bisa membuat semua orang bahagia dengan keputusan, pikiran, kemauan kita
dan kuncinya adalah membiarkan hal tersebut
kalo itu keputusan kita, dan kita harus mengambilnya, jangan memikirkan tentang opini orang lain
coba anda pikir, pakaian yang loe pakai?
jurusan fakultas yang loe ambil?
pekerjaan yangloe ambil?
pacar loe? pernikahan loe?
apa itu keputusan loe? ato mungkin keputusan orang lain? ato mungkin masukkan dari orang lain?
supaya loe ngambil hal yang sebenarnya loe ngga mau ambil hal itu,
karena pada dasarnya tiap manusia selalu ambil keputusan berdasarkan info / masukkan orang lain yg belum tentu tepat sama pilihan hidup kita sendiri, apalagi mengambil keputusan dengan pertimbangan teman
karena kita mencoba membuat org lain senang sama kita, kita di sukai, kita mencoba agar orang lain bisa bahagia dengan keputusan kita
berhentilah, karna tidak mungkin bahagiakan semua orang, karna tiap keputusan yg kita ambil selalu ada yang membencinya, cara terbaik balas dendam dengan orang yang tidak hargai keputusan anda adalah dengan sukses pada keputusan yg anda pilih dan berani menjalani keputusan tersebut secara total,
jadi inget, ambil keputusan yang menurut loe bener dan itu pasti akan berhasil

No More Turnback Point

I'm not in the well condition, I already sick in this first month,
but I think it out so it not became a mistake
I think a saw a light, a way out, I kinda happy on it
even there's a little shinny light, I think, I should chase it
but in time when I see the lights, it's getting dark, but I still after it
I'm never let you down again, I think it all again and decided to build it up,
but why you just dump me and don't bother me?
I'm make you very disappointed?
you look in your ways and think with that,
don't you know I've got another problem? yes you've another too
but I'm in your position in a last days
but I need time to think it out that I should go on, but you closed it
you burn it and it became an ash that buried on the ground
why you can't let me in? I was told you that I try to keep on
why I'm doing this?
there's another reason for me why I keep doing this
I don't want let you go
I know those things that what I've done it's so fuckin suck
but I can fix it, it would be better, just thrust me
you can't thrust your friends but you can't thrust me?
gimme a chance, there's still another way to make this again
are you shy when you should told to your friends that you're not single anymore
and your friend will judge you with their words? why you don't want it? yes that's it, you're ego is higher than your hearts
don't let it filling your heart, I try to lowing down my ego, but why you still keep your ego up?
I won't let you down

Indigo Kid

I know that this time I'm an Indigo
it's like a weird ability to predict what's gonna happen
then I now it's now happen, it's over now
nothings left for me,
yeah still try to cold out and chill,
I try to make you understand what's wrong and what to fix, but what?
you're not gonna fix it right, cuz you're never really with me anyway
now my own through the day
and I'll look for the meaning of life
disappear, move, crawl, sink..
Well there in a beautiful place
because I'm sure she'll be happy
smiling, laughing, and look perfect
 go on, get your friends as a back up
why I won't told you everything, cuz you never thrust me in anything
is it right? absolutely, you understanding me? care about me? not a lot
why?, back to the first conclusion you never really with me anyway
You’ve tried your best, I appreciate that, Let your heart move on
now it's all died in vein, what I dedicated to you, you not appreciate on it, and now it's definitely just a junk
I don't know if we can be friends anymore
I'm afraid I can't be a good friends for you, this traumatic keeps blowing me of the reef
I choose the dark side where I can feel pain and less,
maybe I'm your worst enemy, but love me or hate me, is the same me that you'll find
need a long time to rebuild myself again
just wanted you know the worst thing of this all, you are the best I had so far

I Had to Leave, Just in Time You Had to Go

I try to think straight out now
you're no longer for me now
should this break up? even if I don't want it?
I was know the truth that I'm not belong to you
even your parents is against me, and you wouldn't in my side
should I give up this time, but actually I don't get the point this time
consider it's done, don't bother to explain it, I don't care anymore
you know what's fun is fun, I know what's done is done
so let the story end this way, let us forget it, let us pretend it
i know you prefer to go with your friends better than with me
and seems you kinda happy on it
I won't disturb you anymore
I kinda happy if you happy, even it's not with me
what do I do is not gonna make you stay, so I'm gonna leave this and the rest is up to you
I never threat you to take your choice with me cuz I know that will make you even more sad
I don't know what to do now
I think you'll choose the way of you think, just don't bother what I said to you
that's not important anymore
sorry that I'm wasting your time, but in case, you'll find someone better than me
I try to not regret it, but there's nothing left for me
all of it, family, friends,best friends,any of them including you is gone
even my hope is gone
maybe my life will gone this time, but that isn't matter
I don't hate this life, maybe I'm just not so good on it

gonna seek something that I wouldn't find

bye

Let's Talk About Feelings

Hey, It goes by another reason, it may fill up in my mind
I should be gone far away and never gonna back
those things is getting clear that you choose your friends & left just left me by the time
It just like playing a puzzle in my heart
when I choose the type of the puzzle, then started to build it up, but when I started to know the picture on it, The other piece is falling down when I try to fit another piece, The other piece is falling down over and over again so then I try so hard and make it fit in the place, then the other was falling down again, I started to collect all the puzzle and started to place it in the right place but it goes again, yea the other piece is falling down again should I give up, I don't know why the pieces is gone one by one maybe those puzzle it's to hard for me to build up? Or I'm not in the age to build up those puzzle maybe I started to regret it why those puzzle is letting those pieces goes falling down
I know it's hard, but I'll try to chill out and take a deep breath
I know that you're bored of me, I know you hate me, I know that I always wrong to threat you Maybe I'm searching the point to turnback, but that's to hard to find, you may choose it, with your friends, cuz I like to see you happy with the other better than sad with me just don't care of me,
I know you wouldn't care a lot on me again, but that's you should care of your friends maybe I start to walk alone This time, and keep my foot on the ground and stay awake for a few days

I Always Care If You Don't Care

well now it's totally clear that she was bored of me
she never really want me
maybe at those point, I just disappointing on her
but I do whatever it takes, not overacted it
when I near you it's comfortable but it didn't same in your side
it seems you feel kind of happiness when your not around me
from the way you laugh,talk,everything
just when you upset you came to me,
everything that I do just disturb your happiness with all of your friends
when around me, you just get another trouble that I made,
You really hard to decide it, be with me or with all your friends
Hey,
just leave me and go to your mates
I will never turn against you
but someday wouldn't always the same day like the day before
I will not surrender even this heart is wounded
I still can hold all of those pain with pills and another drinks
but I just want you realize that I wasn't for you
I'm so depressed right now
All I can do just walk away from you

I'll meet you on the other side

need more time to regrets all I've done :')