When you get knocked down you gotta get back up

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mungkin sayang bikin kita nyaman,
mungkin cinta bikin kita bahagia,
mungkin juga kasih bikin kita mengerti.
tapi semua itu tak lebih dari kemungkinan
dan hanya kepastian yang bisa mengubah hal tersebut bukan hanya harapan

cinta itu terjadi ketika ia merasa tertarik kepda sesorang. ia tak tahu bagaimana mengendalikan perasaanya
perasaan itu terus tumbuh dan berkembang.
apa yg ia lakukan hanya demi orang yg ia cintai. ia berjuang, dalam batinya yg tersiksa akan keberadaan cinta.
ia menangis dalam doanya untuk mendapat kan cinta
ia rapuh di saat ia tak ada cinta.

pagi cerah menghampirinya, ia melangkah. ia mencoba untuk tegar walaupun batin nya tersiksa.
dalam hatinya ia menyimpan segala perasaan itu. dalam hidupnya ia mengalami cinta yg serumit ini.
ia menatap ke depan. ia berharap. ia terus mencoba. tapi sayang cinta itu tak bisa ia ungkapkan kepada kasih nya.

meski bibirnya berkata tidak, cinta itu tak bisa d pungkiri. bahwa ia mencintai sahabatnya sendiri.
sahabat yg ia kasihi, ia selalu mendengarkan curahan hatinya dengan sabar, selalu menemaninya di saat ia sendiri dalam kegelapan, selalu menyemangatinya di saat ia terpuruk. ia pun tak bisa berbohong pada dirinya .
bahwa ia mencintai segala kekurangan dan kelebihan sahabatnya .

tapi di saat sahabatnya memiliki cinta dengan yg lain, ia melupakannya. ia lupakan orang yg selalu menemaninya di saat kesendirianya.
tiba saatnya dia ditinggal oleh cinta dengan orang itu. ia berlari, meringkih, menangis, tersedu-sedu dalam kegalauan hatinya.
ia pun hanya terdiam, menghibur. apakah tak sadar bahwa ia mencintai sahabatnya dengan tulus. tapi sahabat itu tak mengerti akan cinta itu

bukan masalah bagaimana ia memperlakukanmu atau kau memperlakukannya, tapi bagaimana kalian bisa menikmatinya bersama, itulah yang belum disadari olehnya
mungkin kau hanya akan melupakan semua hal yang sudah diperjuangkannya,
atau mungkin akan tiba saat di mana kau menyadarinya dan akan menyesalinya, tapi jangan salahkan jika yang terjadi padanya akan terjadi padamu.

kehilangan selalu punya dua sisi, yang kehilangan, dan yang menghilang..
kalo ada di sisi yang menghilang, berbahagialah..
mungkin hidupnya akan lebih menarik di depan...
kalo ada di sisi yang kehilangan, berbahagialah untuk mereka..
seburuk apapun orang itu menyakiti hatimu, ada kebaikan mereka dalam hidupmu..

selalu ingat untuk menjadi orang yang pandai berterimakasih..
bahwa yang kalian lewatin bukan hanya yang tidak menyenangkan saja, tapi banyak juga yang menyenangkan..
berbahagialah untuk itu.

"Some FRIENDS are temporarily, but their memories are FOREVER"

Choa Margera

Dealing with the company

tsup holmes?
holler.
it's been awhile, eh?

how are things going on your end?
mine's pretty well i guess,
well i cant say jolly good, just average "well" is kinda well put. fasting month is over but i'm still adjusting my feeding time.

i miss hitting the stage, this album is taking so long to be release, and at the moment we're waiting the contracts to be done, that's what taking it so long, but i guess it will be done early this month. hopefully. about the new release, it's gonna be a whole new experience, some say it's more mature, hell catchy, bloody sing-a-long-able, and easier to digest. it's gonna get full range. but hey, i don't want you to expect too much because i hate to dissapoint y'all, all i'm saying is.. fuck yeah the new album will be solid awesome. :)

same story someone new--new girlfriend same ol' problems.. people talk shit about me to her and troubled her with thoughts.. pfft yeah right as if they know me so well, first thing to be confirmed is, i MAY be a bad boy, but i'm no jerk. you gotta trust me on that one.

don't get me wrong.

i'm no snob, i just hate to be underestimated.
i'm dead timid, short tempered, highly uncomfort to be in crowds, i'm like a frickin time bomb. a bipolar disorder lil prick.
i love to make a point, you know.. like saying things and proving it, it's like having something to stood up to.

i'm insecure.

ah this is boring, let's just drop the subject, it's like i'm advertising myself hahaha..

so, how are things with you?
hopefully sometime starting next week
i'll pay a visit to your hometowns,
i'd love to have a good talk over drinks with y'all.


see ya, pick me up this morning


Choa Margera

Cover song

yo hold up
listen to this, covering this song with my partner
yea I know there's a lot of mistake and wrong notes
but, who cares? just enjoy it

 http://soundcloud.com/choamargera/choa-margera-ft-louis-advent

best regrads,

Choa Margera

when your day goes dark, you just wait for another sunrise

I'm so excited to know that sometimes time is on my side

am I really floating or gravity just letting me win this time?

and all in all this comes to a conclution

that when your day goes dark, you just wait for another sunrise.

here I am scared shitless

is this gonna work out fine?

hours pass, and I'm still counting the minutes

I'm not gonna let love loose again

be mine again...

(:

You And I Going South

You And I, Going South.

kamu dan aku pergi ke selatan? kok kaya ga ada artinya ya? "You and I" mereka uda lama saling cuek-cuekan jadi udah bukan "We" karena ga bersama, well, "going south" sendiri itu adalah sebuah analogi bahasa inggris yang punya arti "menuju gagal" secara harfiah, south atau selatan itu kan letaknya di bawah kalo di kompas/peta, jadi You And I Going South itu bercerita tentang sebuah hubungan yang sedang menuju kearah gagal, alias hubungan yang akan kandas... haha kandas.. so yeah, mari berlanjut ke lirik lagunya yah.

and now it's time for closure, you know it's always hard to finally decide
i guess to think it over maybe, it's been wrong right from the start.

penggalan ini bercerita tentang waktu untuk memutuskan hubungan (closure), dan kadang itu adalah hal yang paling berat untuk akhirnya memutuskan.
tapi kalau dipikir-pikir lagi, emang kayanya dari awal hubungannya udah salah.

listen to your friends, i don't wanna know
this time use your head to point it out
if this is the end then let's trace the beginning
listen to yourself i don't wanna go.

kadang kita mengandalkan teman-teman kita untuk memutuskan sesuatu, padahal belum tentu mereka mengenal kita bagaimana, di bagian ini ceritanya mau ngomong jangan dengerin temen-temen aja, tapi gunakan kepala/logika untuk tau salahnya dimana, dan kalau emang ini mesti diakhiri, inget-inget dulu awalnya gimana, coba lebih dengerin kata hati karena gak pengen ini berakhir.

this is the anthem for all of things to come
whatever happens happens, you've tried your best
let your heart move on

apapun yang sudah terjadi dan akan terjadi, biarkan terjadi, yang penting lakukanlah yang terbaik, dan biarkan hatinya ikhlas.

you wanted a song, i've wrote you one to carry on
driving home will never be the same without you here

di bagian ini tuh kaya "nih, dulu pengen dibikinin lagu kan? ada satu nih buat diinget-inget", nyetir kerumah rasanya beda sekarang kalo gak ada yang nemenin.

i will never be the same without you standing next to me

semua bakal berubah kalo kita gak bareng lagi

i will always be the man you need, for better or worse, for happy and sorrow til the day that i die

maksudnya janji kalo bakal jadi cowo yang selalu bisa diandalkan, dalam keadaan baik dan buruk, senang dan murung, sampe mati (cieh, janji kan dipegang sampe mati)

don't let situation be your worst frustration, try to slow down to think it out

jangan biarkan keadaan bikin jadi frustasi, coba pikirin pelan-pelan dan gak buru-buru ambil keputusan.

give me just one more shot to start it over, hold my hand so tight
i'll take you anywhere you wanna go right now

kasih kesempatan sekali lagi untuk memperbaikin kesalahan, pegang tangan ini erat dan gue bakal bawa lo kemanapun elo mau.

so i can move on without moving away.

jadi gue bisa move on tanpa harus menghindar dari lo

we can go anywhere you wanna go
anyone you wanna be with (i can be him)
anything you want me to be (i can be anything)

kita bisa kemanapun yang lo mau, gue bisa jadi siapaun yang kamu mau (bahkan jadi "dia"),  gue bisa jadi apa aja yang lo mau

but it it gets too hard, just let my heart move on

tapi kalo jadi kelewat susah, biarkan gue melanjutkan hidup gue, karena gue emang ga pantes buatloe

segitu doank deh kira-kira

Petualang Malam

ini minggu2 awal photo hunting, setelah dikasih waktu untuk belajar tentang kamera selama seminggu, langsung mencoba aplikasinya dan hasilnya memuaskan..
entah kenapa gw merasa ada yang ganjil belakangan ini dengan omongan-omongan orang yang gw gatau apakah itu menjadikan keputusan kedepan lebih baik apa engga, namanya orang mereka selalu mempunyai cara pandang yang berbeda, apakah ada cara pandang yang salah? yang gw tau cuma keputusan yang salah. menurut gw seorang yang sering mengambil keputusan yang salah adalah orang yang akan berhasil di masa depan, karena dengan keputusan yang salah orang mengambil keputusan yang benar pada akhirnya, dan orang yang tidak pernah merasakan kegagalan tidak akan bertahan bila apa yang dijalaninya selama ini tiba2 salah ditengah jalan. It's the wrong way to think, but the right way to win. gw beruntung karena dimasa lalu gw sering mengambil keputusan yang salah.
Halah jadi sok dewasa nulis2 ginian, gpp namanya jg nulis, keluarin aja deh sekalian..
ada apa ya didepan sana? manusia takut sama masa depan, seperti manusia takut kegelapan, karena tidak tau apa yang ada di dalam sana. begitu menyalakan lampu baru semua keliatan, dan perasaan jadi aman. kayanya yang msti gw lakukan sekarang adalah mencari saklar lampu yang bisa nyalain lampu paling terang di hidup gw. dan untuk menemukan itu gw juga pasti akan menemukan beberapa saklar lampu yang malah menyesatkan..
inti dari semuanya adalah, it's ok to fall, don't be afraid to fail, just keep going, you'll know what you're really capable of..


Choa Margera

petualang malam

On A Monday

hey bloggy, another entry..
ok it's been the second time I cried singing tatiana and
I dont know whatsupwiththat but it felt really really really good..
it has become an addiction! yeah it feels really good letting out everyword like you really mean it..
I really mean it
anyway, it's 9.16am, I had my good sleep.. I set my alarm to ring on 2.58am to woke myself because I wanted to do some praying stuff, and back to sleep afterwards until 10 minutes ago, when I walked to the tv room my mom was watching photo stuff from a bunch of photo paper, "who's that? is that ika?" I gagged and choked while sipping my morning orange juice.. HEY! de javu.. ah I've been here before! I don't remember when.. shit I've been in this situation, i know I've been in this situation before! ah well forget it.. anyway, yeah, ika's photo.. lol.. that's a photo of us in the mall, I printed once but it lost, maybe my mom put it back in the photo paper and my mother just put it down and I took those paper to keep it by myself
she's like the sweetest girl I know.. wait, I don't want to write that here.
since ika, I'm not in the mood of being in a relationship yet, I thought I am, but turns out I'm not.. I've been goin out (in a friendly basis) with a really nice girl with the initial D.A and she's ok. everybody knows her,
I liked her. but it just doesn't feels right. the chemistry was just ain't.. right.. I like her, I really like her, I care for you and I loved her. just so you know.
and I know this other girl, her intial is A, she's a model, a collegian majoring Indonesian language, super cute, physically attractive, a 9,5, there's nothing wrong when you see her with your bare eyes, one of those girl that when you meet somewhere on the street you'd tell your friends "oh, I want that! I want her!" we spent the few days back together day and night but then I sensed something terribly ain't right, she has a problem with honesty and that's a fatal flaw.. hey if you're reading this, I just want you to know that i know every lie you've said, e v e r y s i n g l e o n e o f ' e m. she makes up stories, dude. I always seem to catch you when you're lying about the stupidest of things. we had talks on the road and I told her this had to stop, I don't want to be in too deep..
ah well, that's enough about me and my boring relationship.. I didn't mean to hurt anybody.. ain't that normal to want the best for ourselves and others?
I'm gonna stick with 'no commitment' yet until I've found the right one.

ah, the privelegde of being single.

anyway, what's ika doin right now?

Plumbers are red, hedgehogs are blue. Press start to join, and be my player two

Take notes that every little thing i did in these passed weeks doesn't have anything to do with others that has nothing to do with me and my choice of decision and under any circumstances don't hear anything that has nothing to do with your life regarding my choice of decision and your point of judgements.
fellow friends, collegues, buddies, if you hear something that doesn't came out from me personally, don't take it seriously, and don't take premature judgements.
because everyone has the rights to chose, to be loved and to love, and i know losing someone you care is a pain in the ass an all that, but taking everyone out of the one you care life just ain't nice.
I'm sorry if my acts means hurting one's heart.
I'm sorry that I, sometimes made wrong decision.
I'm sorry that I, ...don't know what else to say in this letter of apology
i just want you to know that

that

that

that

that

that

that

..

i'll miss you so good. 

Lost the Way, Just Stop and Wait

Seems I'm gonna meet up again in this intersection
when I choose the right way, it goes back to the past
and the other one is just same, it bring me back to the past
so the way I'm gonna choosing is just playback my past
but with or without a mistake that I've done
maybe this past is good, but I'm starting to think over again,
hey those past is always good too, so where's gonna be?

I've got this unspirited life in here
there's nothing in my future, there all dies in the past
the only exception for me
is just stop and waiting for a long
long

long

long

long 

long

time to get up and start running again

but that's not the point
I'm already wake up at all
but I'm just trapped in this intersection who drive me crazy

then I try to take a peek on the left side
I see there's something blocking on in the end of this street
it's a big wall with a big words that's said "HATE"
I started to think it out again,
if I choose this path, can I break in those big hate walls?
I know that she's hate me now, but she's keep telling me to come back
but I realize that the wall is wasn't strong enough to stop me
maybe I can break it up, but is there any walls again behind the walls?

and then I try to take a peek on the other side
it's just the same thing did on this path
there's a big wall with a big words that's said "EGO"
If I choose this path, it will lead to fight against her ego
well maybe I'm just lose again if I do that
I'm just a kid and not a knight, 
yea when there's nothing left to fight
and I realize that she was dumping me already
so I guess the wall is still thick enough but it's got a window through it
so I can watch it from the long distance

the way I'm gonna choosing is nothing
maybe I should stop the engine
and fix up this "car" until it right
then maybe I started it again
I just don't get the sign, so maybe I'm gonna park in this side of the center intersection
and try to fix it up by myself or wait the walls going down

sometimes is better in the dark side
so you can hide and started to think about your fault
and try to learn it and fix it in the future
then when you started to fix it then you'll need the bright side
the bright side brings you hope and future
but remember, "
"sometimes brights is blindingly, so you have to see beyond the lights" 

yeah that's enough for today

I'm gonna back in the dark side

bye



Choa Margera

random thinking, in the morning

(00.13am)

if you were a t-shirt
I will tumble dry low

if you were a shoe
I will not forget to tie

if you were a tv show
I will not change the channel

if you were a fancy clothes
I will wear you to the prom







and
if you were my girlfriend again,
i will be a happier guy.

Atlantis Is Now Lost Forever

a

"is this it? is this atlantis?"

a great city that i've built once and time lost it, atlantis is a metraphore for something great; my love, my pride, my victory, my glory, my dreams, my joy, my purpose, my last destination

there were so many choices, but i made my decision

"this should be atlantis.. no more looking, dochi.. this should be it." i said to myself

i have to make my decision.

her. i chose her over the others, she has won this heart. this mind. she has to be it. has to be.

i ignored her too long until she finally caught my attention.

from the midnite talks to the time that leads to her very first kiss.

me.

i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, but i surely had a good time, and i bet she had one too with me.

"no, this isn't atlantis" i said to myself.

she built a city in my ruin just to watch it burn and see if i could escape.

na-ah.. scratch that, i dont blame her for anything.

maybe this is atlantis, but it wasnt ready to be found yet.

so i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, that says,

"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"

bye atlantis..

it's the end of an era and a start for everything

now i understand something that i didnt understand before..

that all these times,

red is covering atlantis

it was there all along.

take notes that even i wont say again the words "i love you" ever again, i will always still do

have a good one,

buddy

days ago, i thought i have found atlantis under the sea.. i thought my adventure to the deepest ocean of this so called love life was getting somewhere.. i saw something majestic, something bright at the end of the darkest tunnel..

don't know how to say, just write down

I dont need to say a lotta words to describe what I'm feeling right now, only a few words like 6-7 words... here it goes the truth is


I


wish


it

lasted

a

little

longer.

Fokelah Kalo Begitu

It's about fulfill my promise yesterday
I was uploading this Music Video Clip about Jekardah
yeah this is my first music video
just check this out

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xfniz9kHl4s

alright, you can post a comment or reply or anything else

thx

another case behind "It Hurts"

Sebuah lagu tentang bagaimana seorang cowo yang di tinggal pergi oleh cewe yang spesial dalam hidupnya
karena cowo itu nyuekin cewenya karena bingung sama permasalahannya tiap lagi bareng cewenya, yah semacam hubungan yang dilanda konflik eksternal dan internal gitu, dan akhirnya malah si cowo yang ditinggal tapi dia masih berharap dan bertahan meskipun hatinya teriris karena diacuhkan
(kasian banget kayaknya tuh cowo)

I can't sleep
and it’s been my first week
Since the first I have you close to me

si cowo ini semacam insomnia sejak seminggu setelah bener-bener merasa di tinggal cewenya
dan jadi inget pas mereka baru jadian si cowo ini juga kena insomnia dalam jangka waktu relatif

and it’s like cutting all my fingers
just to keep it lingers
and I know that all those liquors won't heal

rasanya itu kaya motong semua jari-jari tangan biar dia bisa tetep nerasa kalo dia masih hidup 
karena perasaannya yang uda ilang habis di tinggal si cewe itu,
dan dia pun sadar ternyata minuman keras yang biasa dia konsumsi
gak bakal bisa nyembuhin penderitaan kesendiriannya itu

Back in the time 
when I want you around
and I kept writing songs 
singing “wish you were here”

saat dia bengong mesti pikirannya kembali ke masa-masa dia masih butuhin cewenya,
dan dia pengen kalo hal bahagia di masa lalu itu terulang lagi di masa depan,
entah kenapa dia tetep nulis lagu buat si cewe itu berharap suatu saat cewenya itu kembali

Back in the time 
when I want you around
and I’m making you a sad song
just to let you know how it hurts

masih sama kaya penjelasan di atas, cuma ini alasan kenapa dia nulis lagu sedih
dia cuma pengen ngasih tau aja kalo "'ini' sakit"

I found a way to get you now
But I'm afraid I can't keep up with your heart
and it comes to this conclution, I got you now
But I'm afraid I can't keep up with your heart

Di sini saat si cowo baru nemuin "jalan" untuk mempercayakan buat si ceweknya
tapi dia takut karna si cewe itu pun ngga meyakinkannya untuk bertahan dan malah pergi
(mungkin si cewe juga mangkel kali ya di cuekin terus)
dan itu semua beralih ke kesimpulan,
"aku bisa dapetin kamu sekarang, tapi aku takut aku gak bisa ngikutin kemauan hatimu"
dan kesimpulan itu berubah jadi kenyataan pahit yang harus di terima si cowo

Sometimes this fullness seems so empty
and I don't know if I can't get through this
Cus when I'm cutting all my fingers
Just to keep it lingers
and I know that all those liquors won't heal

Kadang "kepenuhannya" itu berasa "kosong"  (mungkin karna ga ada si cewenya itu)
bikin dia bingung buat ngelewatin semua masalahnya ini
lha karna itu liriknya sama liat penjelasan di atas, kan sama

I want you here,
 everytime I feel so empty inside
Im sick of this

lyric ini ada di backing vokal reff yang terakhir
si cowo uda gak tahan lagi atas kepergian cewenya
"aku mau kamu di sini,
setiap waktu aku merasa kosong dalam segala hal
aku bosan dengan itu"
sekiranya begitulah kalo di artiin ke bahasa indonesianya
kasian banget tuh cowo ya, mungkin dia susah move on karena uda kelamaan bersama dan hubungannya uda spesial banget, mungkin mereka uda janji ga bakal saling ninggal ato mungkin....
kalo di mungkinin terus ga abis-abis tulisannya
cape nih tangan gw
mending tanya orangnya aja langsung

coba dengar lagunya dulu deh

http://soundcloud.com/choamargera/ithurts

oke sekian penjelasan dari gw, siapa orangnya? uda jadi PR aja
biarkan itu menjadi misteri

Bye


Choa Margera
 

Creative Producer

Hey, back again huh
I've got a lot things to do
well, it just for keep me busy and it makes me stop for thinking about feeling
I like that, that's erased my sob
Now I'm a creative producer, I record many much film
kind a short film, and music video
here's my first short movie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fy5KkhA9qI


di situ diceritain, gimana seorang anak yang bisa melakukan teleport
di kunciin rumahnya sama ibu kos nya, dan ibu kos nya pergi entah kemana
lalu karena rumahnya kosong dia, dia memberanikan diri melakukan teleportasi
dia sudah mencoba menelpon temannya, tapi tidak diangkat
sepertinya temannya lesu sekali, lalu tertidur dan tidak mengangkat panggilannya

sekian aja deh prolognya, sisanya liat sendiri di filmnya, kan gak asik kalo tau semuanya

sedang editing video clip, mungkin besok baru bisa posting

bye

It's the Game of Guessing, and I Think I'm Losing

i woke up with soaky wet eyes
i guess i cried on my sleep
but more like drowning to me
i guess i woke up too early
i guess i fell asleep too late
i guess i didnt get enough sleep
i guess when i woke up, i noticed that youre no longer there

there.
not even here
like the presence of your essence of existence
the juice of every ion of your resemblance
the shade of you standing in distance watching every step to meet you there

there.
a sanctuary
a place where i feel safe
a place where i can always be myself
a place where i dont need another fight

i guess there's no more fight to get this right
well what's there left to fight?


you cried.
i cried.
and then we laughed.
but then we cried again.
we cried because we're happy but drowned by the toughts that we're not meant to be.

i gave you love
u gave me motivation
u loved me back
and gave me direction.

where to?

i guess,
i'm just wrong

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Athazagoraphobia Kid

what is it with people who misinterpreted my kindness to certain people?
when i'm close with someone and like to hangout with a person that doesn't mean i'm attracted, it's because i love to hang out.
it doesn't have to mean i want her to be my girlfriend but i just love to hangout.
i mean cmon man.
we all can make friends.
don't feel like you own me.
just got the athazagoraphobia, i'm really tired of drama as of now, i just wanna lay back a bit for this love stuff, well if its up to me, i don't want love, i just wanna have flings cus it's easier to handle, but no its not up to me, i know how to handle with feelings.
well i guess things like that is hard to find in this crappy town, you know, just having fun with the right fun people. we kinda lack of fun people to hang out with these days, and by people i mean people from different gender.
cus you know, misery loves company, and some things just stressed me out, got me bored, so yeah, i love the company. scratch that, i appreciate the company. but without being misinterpreted.
so please don't get me wrong.
hey it's my advantage being single, i choose.
and it's your choice too,
but let's just let aside of those things, i just wanna lay back.

a good friend of mine said to me just the other night,

"deket sama cewe ga salah ko asal lo blm terikat pacaran. tp gimana cara lo deket sm mereka yang harus hati2, karena takutnya dianggep beda sama yg lo maksud. ga semua cewe itu bisa dianggap santai buat berteman dulu, dan ga semua juga ngerti kalo suatu saat lo menemukan yang lebih baik dari mereka. lo deketin beberapa cewe juga ga salah, lo kan blm punya pacar, dan diperjalanan lo untuk mencari yang terbaik lo pasti butuh beberapa pertimbangan. tapi masalahnya beberapa dari mereka salah artiin."

I will keep that in mind.
all I can say is a friend like her is pretty hard to find. Hey, thanks for stood up for me the other night when your friends was saying stuff about me. High 5!

So, you blokes wanna hang out?
I'm still looking for a partner in crime.
Sidokare is a big playground.

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Welcoming The Sophomore

3 tahun yang lalu masa-masa terakhir gw menghabiskan waktu sama band lama gw,
Beneath My Skin, tapi akhirnya karena masalah masing-masing bikin kita terpecah2
sampai akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk keluar..
band itu lalu menelorkan beberapa band yang cukup membanggakan..
Guntur bikin Furher, Bagonk bikin Panda Movies dan maen juga di Furher, dan
si Ichad bikin Sense Of Symphonic, 1 temen gw ngelanjutin kerja jadi tulang punggung keluarga, lalu gw sendiri?

beberapa bulan gw berpetualang bikin band lagi dan kembali melesat bagai komet
dengan nama HbS : Heartbreak Syndrome, gw maen di Jakarta dan kota sekitarnya
ngegigs bareng dan have fun bareng, namun "perang ego" bikin kita pecah dan saling
berpaling muka dan akhirnya gw pun keluar dengan trauma stadium bola untuk bikin band

setelah keluar dari BMS gw sempet bantu bandnya Paul, Fibonacci, yang
sampe skrg albumnya kayanya blm beredar2 nih (mana mul gak rilis2?
duluan gw nih hehe), lalu bantuin tmn gw Mardial..
di sela2 kosong gw, gw iseng2 bikin lagu akustikan dan proyek itu gw kasih nama
"Insomniac Kid Awake".. sampai akhirnya gw iseng nulis lagu yang judulnya
"We Are Going North". lagu iseng yang gw tulis buat ika, sahabat gw
waktu itu, dan menceritakan gimana dari sahabat akhirnya ganti status
jadi pacar hehe itu lagu akustik pertama gw yang di cover temen gw Louis Advent,
tapi malah melejitnya dengan judul "Stay With Me". hahaha gpp is yang penting dunia tau.
setelah lagu itu (We Are Going North) jadi, gw gak langsung rekaman,
gw niatnya mau ngerekam dengan backing vocal dari ika itu sendiri,
tapi karena situasi yang tidak memungkinkan, akhirnya gw malah ngerekam lagu laen "Caramelized Sugar"
yang pengen di coverin temen gw Gabrielle "gebi" tapi belon jadi-jadi, mana geb? haha

waktu itu gw adisionalin dan jadi multimedia sekaligus crew banyak band,
disitu gw kenal banyak temen termasuk Paul itu, ato biasa di puji Kemul.
gw inget waktu bilang ke dia "bikin band lagi mul, bikin yang beda dari
band loe, semua personil pada nyanyi"
dan gw kasih dia denger "Hello Stranger" sebuah lagu yg di garap temen gw dengan materi dari gw
, dia setuju dan gw gak mau dia cuma maen gitar doang, tapi juga suara 2..

bertepatan sama ulangtaun tetangga gw, yang ke 17 (13-3-2013),
High Five terbentuk dengan line up pertama: gw (bass vokal), kemul (gitar vokal),
cyn (gitar), iis (drum), dan 1 guest star yg namanya ga mau di sebutin (vokal)..
perjalanan baru gw dengan harapan besar terulang lagi,
kita bakal solid meski di pisah jarak dan waktu masing-masing

Gw juga join dengan band HC yang memiliki bumbu Old School yaitu Bad Syndrome
gw diajak temen dari temen gw yang sebenernya 1 kampung sama gw yaitu Gabriel "G4B"
gw gak mudeng kenapa namanya Bad Syndrome, mungkin karena kita bawa syndrome
yg buruk saat kita maen kuping berdarah, sound pecah, penonton berantem, crewnya pada tidur,
dan berbagai keributan lainnya

setahun setelah itu, kita cari gigs kecil sehingga terjadi sedikit bentrok antar personil
temen gw yang ngajakin gw join (G4B) pun hengkang dari Bad Syndrome
kami bertiga mencari pemain pengganti dan masuklah iis (Louis Advent)
kita mulai mikir untuk merilis merch. dan rekaman.

belum pernah gw ketemu orang2 yang gak kenal capek dan berasa kaya
keluarga kedua gw.. gak kerasa, hari ini udah taun ketiga... touring2 bareng, seneng2
bareng, sedih2 bareng, ga punya duit bareng, punya duit bareng, mau
cuma makan indomie doang atau nraktir temen2 makan rame2 rasanya sama
enaknya kalo lagi bareng.. tidur bareng, ketawa2 sampe
pagi, nakal2 bareng, harlem shake bareng, bimbingan bareng, dapet nilai afektif C bareng,
berantem bareng, dimusuhin orang, ditemenin orang, dimusuhin temennya, nemenin musuhnya,
kita bener2 berangkat dari nol.


Masalah demi masalah kita hadepin, dari masalah yang ringan
sampe masalah yang berat yang sampai membuat nilai afektif gw dan sahabat2 gw jadi C
yang artinya "gak bisa lulus"
peristiwa itu mengharuskan kita ikut bimbingan agar C jadi B


gw jadi inget salah satu guru gw bilang sebuah ungkapan bahasa latin;
"ut omnes unum sint, ut credat mundum" yang artinya "agar semua menjadi
satu, supaya dunia percaya." awalnya gw gak ngerti maksudnya apa, tapi
gw tau skrg, kita ga akan bisa buktiin sesuatu kalo kita cuma sndiri,
dan haleluya kita punya sahabat2 yang mendukung kita sejak kita dari
nol.


waduh kayanya udah panjang banget nih gw nulisnya.. dan kayanya bentar
lagi taksi yang bakal nganterin gw ke bandara dateng,
beberapa jam lagi kita bakal menginjakkan kaki di bali!
all i want to say is, thank you for everyone who believes in me,
it's been a rad trip with you guys! jangan lupa sama tuhan, keluarga,
temen, pacar. what ever happens, family comes first!


maaf bila selama 2 tahun ini gw pernah ngecewain kalian, gw punya maksud
positif kog dari rentetan tindakan negatif gw, coba pikirin deh positifnya
gw gak jauh beda sama lo semua, gak diatas ga dibawah, jadi ingatlah kenangan
di masa lalu ini, biarpun itu bikin loe sakit toh juga ada kenangan baik yang asik bareng-bareng



Welcoming The Sophomore, freshmen years has gone gotta take it
away with all we've got! today is officially our sophomore year!

Sebuah Cerita Di Balik Hari Esok

Dibalik Hari Esok ini lagu bahasa Indonesia pertama di PWG, lagu ini yang akhirnya bikin PWG tembus layar kaca

mungkin cerita dibalik lagunya ini menurut gue tentang pacaran, terus si cewek nya ninggalin si cowok, karena lebih milih kegiatannya dan mungkin bikin cewe itu makin ilfil sama si cowo, lagu ini tentang sebuah harapan, jadi semua yang gue dapet hari itu dan sebelumnya, akan membantu gue meraih mimpi gue di masa depan. Jadi lagu ini untuk mengingatkan gue, yang gue bakal raih besok, ini cerita dibalik semua itu

matahari, jangan kau berpaling
biarkanlah terang kembali mengisi hariku
biarkan berhenti, dan putar kembali
tak akan bisa kau ambil jantung ini,
berhenti berdetak sampai kau disini

kembali, putar waktu kembali

analogi matahari gue pake untuk menggambarkan keceriaan, gimana sedihnya gue waktu ditinggalin dan berharap matahari gak ninggalin gue dan bikin hari-hari gue jadi gelap setelah gue gak sama dia lagi, tapi biarpun begitu, gue tetep harus semangat dan gak boleh mati semangatnya, sampe gue bisa buktiin ke dia, gue berhasil.

kunyalakan tv dan tenggelamku di layar kaca
(membawaku kembali pada waktu itu)
ciuman pertama yang kau rasa
(semua berlalu tanpa terasa)

mungkin TV di ibaratkan sebagai hal yang membuat malas dan bengong sehingga pikiran jadi ke mana-mana pada saat menonton TV yang membosankan, jadi inget pas dulu masih pacaran, katanya dulu gue ciuman pertamanya dia, tapi kayanya udah gak ada artinya hehe

dapatkah semua kembali seperti sediakala disaat semua biasa saja?
membawamu kembali kesampingku
membawaku pergi bersamamu

dan setelah semuanya berubah, dia sibuk lagi dengan kegiatannya, gue sibuk sama BSHC , kayanya sekarang udah gak bisa lagi untuk biasa-biasa aja, dan kita gak mungkin bareng lagi

dan pastikan kau akan kembali
tak akan bisa kau ambil jantung ini,
berhenti berdetak sampai kau disini
kembali, putar waktu kembali

ya biasalah kalo baru putus kan masih galau, masih berharap cewenya balik lagi, dan sampe mati bakal terus berusaha

aku disini inginkan canda dan tawa
teriak lepaskan beban terdalam
aku disini inginkan canda dan tawa
teriak lepaskan beban terdalam

belum waktuku
ini waktumu bersinar
belum waktuku
ini waktumu bersinar

maksudnya mungkin mau menghibur diri sendiri, gue selalu ngebayangin serunya nyanyiin ini diatas panggung, dan disitulah tempat gue bisa seneng, bisa bercanda dan ketawa sama temen-temen ngelepas semua masalah.. dan berkata ke diri gue sendiri, belum waktu gue sekarang, biarin dia dulu yang bersinar nikmatin masa-masa dia mendalami di bidang.. ehem.. manajemen perhotelan ^^