On A Monday

hey bloggy, another entry..
ok it's been the second time I cried singing tatiana and
I dont know whatsupwiththat but it felt really really really good..
it has become an addiction! yeah it feels really good letting out everyword like you really mean it..
I really mean it
anyway, it's 9.16am, I had my good sleep.. I set my alarm to ring on 2.58am to woke myself because I wanted to do some praying stuff, and back to sleep afterwards until 10 minutes ago, when I walked to the tv room my mom was watching photo stuff from a bunch of photo paper, "who's that? is that ika?" I gagged and choked while sipping my morning orange juice.. HEY! de javu.. ah I've been here before! I don't remember when.. shit I've been in this situation, i know I've been in this situation before! ah well forget it.. anyway, yeah, ika's photo.. lol.. that's a photo of us in the mall, I printed once but it lost, maybe my mom put it back in the photo paper and my mother just put it down and I took those paper to keep it by myself
she's like the sweetest girl I know.. wait, I don't want to write that here.
since ika, I'm not in the mood of being in a relationship yet, I thought I am, but turns out I'm not.. I've been goin out (in a friendly basis) with a really nice girl with the initial D.A and she's ok. everybody knows her,
I liked her. but it just doesn't feels right. the chemistry was just ain't.. right.. I like her, I really like her, I care for you and I loved her. just so you know.
and I know this other girl, her intial is A, she's a model, a collegian majoring Indonesian language, super cute, physically attractive, a 9,5, there's nothing wrong when you see her with your bare eyes, one of those girl that when you meet somewhere on the street you'd tell your friends "oh, I want that! I want her!" we spent the few days back together day and night but then I sensed something terribly ain't right, she has a problem with honesty and that's a fatal flaw.. hey if you're reading this, I just want you to know that i know every lie you've said, e v e r y s i n g l e o n e o f ' e m. she makes up stories, dude. I always seem to catch you when you're lying about the stupidest of things. we had talks on the road and I told her this had to stop, I don't want to be in too deep..
ah well, that's enough about me and my boring relationship.. I didn't mean to hurt anybody.. ain't that normal to want the best for ourselves and others?
I'm gonna stick with 'no commitment' yet until I've found the right one.

ah, the privelegde of being single.

anyway, what's ika doin right now?